Dear Just me,
You have been very brave to make yourself vulnerable in this situation. You have been through a lot of very difficult circumstances in your life and retained the desire and ability to minister to others. This is a positive strength you possess.
You stated that when you chose to minister in the area of Hospice to those who were dying of AIDS, that your ministering friends turned their backs on you. Please understand that the area of ministry you were in is not easily understood by the world, much less the church. Some of this due to ignorance of how Aids can be contracted and many times a person is afraid that just breathing the air or touching the hand of someone with aids could infect them, and most of us want to go to heaven but few of us truly want to die. We don't want to die, because just like in the contracting of aids...we are unaware of what this really means because we have never experienced it before. When things are not understood it brings fear of the unknown.
With this in mind...please forgive your friends for not understanding or accepting your ministry. I believe that we may have a bit in common in this area
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AS for your church family, I have to ask you this, "Did you give them the opportunity to minister to you?" many times a church family rallies around a person in need and I just wonder if you gave them the opportunity, or have you isolated yourself out of fear?
I have had friends who have died of aids. Some have died lost and unrepentent of their lifestyle of sin, while others were repentant, forgiven by God and the church, restored and died safe in the arms of God and in the bosom of their church family. There are good people of God who would like to minister to your needs while you go through this time of crisis.
One thing is for sure...God is there and will be with you to the end..and beyond.
Blessings, Rhoni
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