The Sadness of a Testimony

[Mercy]

Hi everyone.

I have a question for those of you that God has delivered from something and He has given you opportunity to use that situation (testimony) to witness to others.

Background:

Several years ago (although it seems like this morning) I was in a very bad automobile wreck. I remember sharing it on a testimony thread but I think it was a different board than this one. NEhoo, I broke everything, literally, (head on collision with an 18 wheeler going about 70 mph) lost my fiancé, and spent several months in the hospital, and several years after that rehabilitating to some level of physical normalcy. Most people when they meet me now only see the physical scars I have from all the breaks and surgeries, but don’t know what they are from, or notice the limp I have perfected.

Ok,

So about a month ago one of my co workers that I am super cool with had a kid have a pretty bad accident. He was riding his bicycle and was hit by a car. He broke his leg pretty bad but didn’t really damage anything else (which is awesome cuz he wasn't wearing a helmet).

So the kid has been in and out of the hospital cuz of the break not healing right, he got an infection and has to do the IV meds, etc. So his dad talks to me everyday about it...some for the knowledge I have cuz his situation is a very small scale mirror image of mine, and some for comfort that his son will be ok… cuz I am ok.

I have been using the opportunity to share God's goodness and healing power.

But....

It has also been super, super hard for me reliving my situation everyday. Everyday. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to discourage him from talking to me about it cuz I know he's struggling with his emotions, and it gives me a chance to talk about God, but I don’t have an outlet for this sadness. I don’t know what to do.

It was a pretty horrific experience, not knowing if I was going to live, not knowing how to deal with the loss of someone so, so close to me, and trying to adjust to the constant physical and emotional pain. So talking about it everyday, all the stuff I had to go through (whether I am saying it or its just replaying in my mind) has been maddening.

I am currently actively working on dealing with this….residual….that was never properly addressed when the situation occurred, but that is on the side of this current situation.

I would like to know what do you do when you have to share a painful testimony….for the sake of giving God glory? What do you do with the sadness that abounds?