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Originally Posted by houston
Lately through this mess I have been feeling like God has been telling me to “be still and know that I AM.”
Truth of the matter is, I was trying to go at it on my own. God as an afterthought.
Moving to McAllen failed almost immediately. I went back up to Houston. I was living in my car half the time. Distracting myself from reality. Driving to barely scrape by. Spending so much time driving wore me out mentally, and being constantly in a sitting position took a toll on my health.
Is it odd that I was expecting to be in an accident before the fender bender? After the fender bender I knew that THAT was not it. I expected something more serious. Five days later my car was totaled. In McAllen, not in Houston.
I’ve been stuck in McAllen ever since. Bored out of my mind. Stressed like you wouldn’t believe. I literally have nothing. Attending church and cell group with my friend has been a blessing. I can get out of the house. I fellowship with a few people. I have regained a hunger and thirst for His righteousness.
I notified the attorney and the doc that it’s time to start wrapping things up. I have a job coming up mid August in Houston. The guy that hit me has kinda low policy limits. The attorney’s office said that I would have to continue seeing the doc to get the max payout. I can’t. I can’t wait. I am not trying to get rich. 5k seems to be what people get down here. I won’t settle for that. I could have got $10k had I met with the insurance adjuster. So, I’m hoping, I’m praying the payout is much more decent than that.
The job pays very well. I have been waiting for this job for over a year. Finally we’ve made progress and are going to launch soon. But, it could fold. I can receive a phone call tomorrow with news that things will be delayed, or even that I’m not fit for the position. When I return to Houston i’ll be couch surfing for a month. I’ll try to make it no more than two weeks. If for whatever reason it folds, I have nothing to fall back on. I’ll be homeless, literally.
The Lord is saying, “be still and know that I AM.” And I don’t know how to. And I’m afraid.
Thanks for listening.
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Keeping you in our prayers.
I was supposed to be in the Keys right now working on a roof. I was last week in one of the hottest times. Got heat stroke twice, because I was doing hammers and anvils all over the job. Had to be back at home for church related issues. This week I had to drive back and forth to the Keys to drop off material. Did the hustle because I needed to be in Fort Lauderdale. We have brothers going out of town to Mexico and Cuba. So, I had to be back. Car issues all around, plus work issues since the entire crew is in the Keys and I'm up here by myself. There is a Vitamin and Protein shop one of the brothers run. He has these carved plaques with scripture on them.
I was there a while back and he met me at my car as I pulled up. It said "God Will Provide." The Brother told me that the Lord wanted him to give it to me.
Because at the time I was trying to figure out how everything was going to connect the dots. But if we look at our past we can see where Jesus took care of everything. It is the unknown that concerns us. We try to zig and zag, and see how we can help Jesus git'er done. But He just wants me to pray, and let Him take care of the business. Jesus has always got us through, and in His getting us through we learn something. I'm praying for you and you please pray for me.
In Jesus name
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