So demon possession is a thing....

[jediwill83]

Ok folks, let me preface this by saying I have full permission from my wife to post this and I'm not betraying any confidence or "talking out of school."

Just a recap, over the past 4 years we were involved in some pretty dark stuff. Witchcraft, paganism etc. We hadn't attended church during that time. My wife had become deeply enmeshed in Tarot and divination and I was delving into things as well.

Suicidal ideations, self harm...It was pretty bad. There were times I didn't know if I would find her alive when I got home from work.

We don't have anything to prove where it comes to sin and bondage, we have our merit badges.

We both were getting more and more out of control and deeper and deeper into darkness and let me just say....It gets really deep and really dark.

December 22nd I was arrested. I lost my job, certification, my family. I spent my daughter's first Christmas in a cell.

I had never fought suicide like I did for those days. I had the motive and the means to end my life VERY easily. The shame and darkness was engulfing me. The voices whispered and urged me over and over to end it. I was having so many methods running through my head of how to do it and it was non stop.

I was so far gone that finally the voices suggested that instead of killing myself in painful horrible ways that why suffer? I could overdose and just go to sleep.

I can't describe to you the sense of relief I felt when I came to that realization...That there was a way out where I felt I didn't have to suffer.

My dad came to visit me and brought my mom's Bible and for the first time in 4 years I opened one up and read desparate for anything I could glean from its pages. I turned to once familiar passages finding they brought me no peace because I couldn't relate with them....I was no longer that man that was after Gods own heart...I was depraved, leperous and dark.

I happened to turn to Haggai. I had never really paid attention to this book but as I read the first chapter God spoke to me clearer than I have ever heard Him speak. He told me, "Because you have neglected My house I have put a blight upon you." Go read the first chapter of Haggai...its as clear as day and I knew God was speaking to me through it.

I got out broken consumed by shame and fear...I literally had a mental breakdown, my life was a nightmare. I finally surrendered to God and said, "OK God I'm done...I give up...I'm not running anymore I surrender."

Right after that God told me,"You need to shave." I started arguing with God making my case on why I shouldn't have to shave and that there was no scripture prohibiting a beard and in my arrogance and pride I ended my argument with, "And besides...No preacher has come up to me telling me I had to." Clear as a bell He said*and I quote*,"Oh you're not doing it to submit to them....You're doing it to submit to Me." I knew then that this was not business as usual and if I was to be changed as a result of wrestling with the angel something would have to change...So needless to say I shaved. God-1 Me-0

Over the weeks that followed God reunited me and my family in a miraculous way but my wife was not surrendering to God. She was still enmeshed and bound by demonic forces. There were times she would mock my efforts to live for Him saying,"With all you have done how can you think He would help you?" I responded with, "I have no other choice...I am but a unclean leper casting myself on His mercy."

At times I would break through to her and God would use me to talk to her and minister to her. I would feel the annointing come over me as I spoke with authority and unction that I knew wasn't from me. I didn't take the mocking and attacks personally. I knew that she wasn't my enemy but it was the demonic forces that controlled her. God gave me a peace and gave me patience.

I told her that we were not going to be involved in the things we were involved in but there were things done behind my back. It started coming to a head about a week and a half ago. I had came home from a business trip for my dad and as I was trying to relax here I started to see demons.

Folks...I'm not crazy...Let me rephrase that...I don't hallucinate and never have hallucinated. It wasn't just what I was seeing but it was a physical reaction that would hit me when I saw them. The next day I laid down the law and out went the Tarot cards I found without realizing there were others.

So that brings us to last night. I've never been a going ho spiritual warfare guy. That kind of stuff has always freaked me out when I was younger. I don't go looking for fights. I don't go throwing my weight around and commanding this and rebuking that. I'm telling your this so that you will know and understand that what happened was totally out of character for me.

So the baby was down and we went outside on the porch to talk. We had a pretty awesome day and everything was pretty chill. The conversation was brought up about how Kat had felt that she was meant for more and that she had just felt shackled and that she always felt since having met me that I would be somehow instrumental in her being set free.

I began to speak and the HolyGhost began to minister. I told her under the annointing, "What has bound and enslaved you will one day tremble in fear in your presence." Not knowing how prophetic that utterance was but I was soon to find out. As she talked about how troubled she was in her mind and spirit and talked about it going way back to her childhood I quoted the scripture, "Come unto me all ye who are heavy laden and I will give you rest and take my yoke upon you and learn of me for My burden is easy and my yoke is light." "For God hath not given us a spirit of fear but of power and love and a sound mind." She shot back with, "So why aren't you of sound mind?" I said, *not realizing what was about to happen* Why are you getting so snappy and defensive? I didn't bring this up...You did!" ....And the demon spoke and said, "Yep" I stood there in silence for what seemed like 10 minutes neither of us speaking...I couldn't see her face in the darkness but I could feel a presence manifesting like a storm front growing... battle lines were being drawn.

I was about to say, "Think very carefully about your next course of action." Knowing I'd be speaking to it...Not her. I had never been in this position before but there was a unsaid recognition there...almost primal. I kept silent...It made the first move.

Suddenly, I saw an apparition literally erupt from her into the space that separated us...It looked like a haggard old woman with stringy lanky hair with hands curled into claws reaching for me.

The spirits in my wife spoke...She stood right in front of me and said, "Look into my eyes...Now you finally see us." My wife didn't know what I had just seen come out of her. With my left hand I reached up and tore the talisman off her neck with the right I laid hands on her rebuking it.

Next lesson: That authority in the name of Jesus thing? That's real.

I prayed and rebuked and because I was alone and had never been in this position before I knew I needed help. It was almost 11 on but I commanded them to be silent and to follow me and once inside I told it to sit. I called my mom who woke my dad and they contacted the pastor. While waiting I didn't engage it or talk with it...I stood with a counter separating us...It began to mock and talk about how long it had controlled her...I kept silent except to bow my head and begin to pray. I was kinda at a loss for words...I didn't feel confident...I was waaay out of my element. As I began to pray there was this MASSIVE presence that entered the room. I felt it swell and break over me. I had never felt anything that intense...It felt like power...And righteous holy anger. It spoke out of my spirit,"Who are you who would stand and defy the Lord Almighty?"

I knew then that it was only a matter of time. My dad arrived and we prayed together then the pastor arrived and we bound together in agreement. It was a rough fight and experience but it broke and she began to cry out to God and speak in tongues as the Spirit gave the utterance. After they left we prayed and talked and stayed up till almost 4 am burning tarot cards and spell books.

She told me that she could hear the demons arguing and they had been angry at themselves for revealing themselves to me. I knew it was God causing that to happen.

Look I'm nothing. I'm not super spiritual and I'm not even a decent Christian sometimes. I just want to remind you that the battle is real...There is a devil and demons and there is a holy righteous God that still delivers and sets free those who are bound and sets at liberty them that are bruised. I love each and every one of you and thank you for your prayers and love and support. Please keep praying. We are swimming in unknown waters now.

[CC1]

Great testimony. I hope it helps someone struggling and feels there is no hope. I absolutely do believe in spiritual warfare. When my children were young I woke up with a demon trying to strangle me. For a bit I could not speak audibly but started saying "Jesus" over and over in my mind and finally could speak. I scared my wife to death by reaching over and shaking her awake and urgently telling her to pray.

I will be praying for both you and your wife. You may never know who all was praying for you when you were at your lowest.

[Amanah]

I thank God that the chains of darkness have been broken and you and your wife are free.

[Birddog]

What an awesome testimony! That is great to hear and I thank you for sharing it with us.

There are still some here that believe in demonic possession and deliverance from that! There have been some on here that have been praying for you!

Thanks again!

[Esaias]

Glad to hear your testimony! A bit of advice from someone who has been there and done that... you REALLY REALLY REALLY need to get in fellowship with some Holy Ghost saints of God. It doesn't matter if their eschatology is off, if they are wrong about tithing, if they are all messed up about proper ecclesiology, if they can't figure out anything beyond Acts 2:38, One God and Jesus is His Name, the Holy Ghost, real prayer, and holy living. If they get that much right, then that's right where you need to be.

TRUST ME on this. Lay aside any notions you have of fixing them. Learn some basics, not just by hearing it preached but by seeing it in action and participating in it, from some old time saints of God. There's a lot that's better caught than taught about living in the will of God.

Find a small, backwards, country, rural, simple church with no fancy bells and whistles, where the preacher and the saints cain't seem ta speak the King's English and don't drive no fancy cars but they can show you how to live for God, and show it by experience.

People aren't perfect, overlook their faults and you'll probably find they'll overlook yours. But I STRONGLY recommend you find a small, local, apostolic church WITH OLD PEOPLE IN IT that have been walking with the Lord for DECADES and who know how to have old fashioned PRAYER MEETING.

Church hop and shop if necessary until you find THIS CHURCH I'M TALKING ABOUT. You'll know it because your flesh will scream at you to stay away but the Holy Ghost will lead you if you are willing.

Down the road the Lord may call you somewhere else (maybe, maybe not) but FOR NOW you need to get GROUNDED and ROOTED in some real basic stuff. And I am not talking about 'basic doctrines'. Do this and you'll thank the Lord later on.

I speak from personal experience, both good and bad. I WISH someone had told me the same thing 25 years ago.

[Aquila]

Originally Posted by jediwill83

Ok folks, let me preface this by saying I have full permission from my wife to post this and I'm not betraying any confidence or "talking out of school."

Just a recap, over the past 4 years we were involved in some pretty dark stuff. Witchcraft, paganism etc. We hadn't attended church during that time. My wife had become deeply enmeshed in Tarot and divination and I was delving into things as well.

Suicidal ideations, self harm...It was pretty bad. There were times I didn't know if I would find her alive when I got home from work.

We don't have anything to prove where it comes to sin and bondage, we have our merit badges.

We both were getting more and more out of control and deeper and deeper into darkness and let me just say....It gets really deep and really dark.

December 22nd I was arrested. I lost my job, certification, my family. I spent my daughter's first Christmas in a cell.

I had never fought suicide like I did for those days. I had the motive and the means to end my life VERY easily. The shame and darkness was engulfing me. The voices whispered and urged me over and over to end it. I was having so many methods running through my head of how to do it and it was non stop.

I was so far gone that finally the voices suggested that instead of killing myself in painful horrible ways that why suffer? I could overdose and just go to sleep.

I can't describe to you the sense of relief I felt when I came to that realization...That there was a way out where I felt I didn't have to suffer.

My dad came to visit me and brought my mom's Bible and for the first time in 4 years I opened one up and read desparate for anything I could glean from its pages. I turned to once familiar passages finding they brought me no peace because I couldn't relate with them....I was no longer that man that was after Gods own heart...I was depraved, leperous and dark.

I happened to turn to Haggai. I had never really paid attention to this book but as I read the first chapter God spoke to me clearer than I have ever heard Him speak. He told me, "Because you have neglected My house I have put a blight upon you." Go read the first chapter of Haggai...its as clear as day and I knew God was speaking to me through it.

I got out broken consumed by shame and fear...I literally had a mental breakdown, my life was a nightmare. I finally surrendered to God and said, "OK God I'm done...I give up...I'm not running anymore I surrender."

Right after that God told me,"You need to shave." I started arguing with God making my case on why I shouldn't have to shave and that there was no scripture prohibiting a beard and in my arrogance and pride I ended my argument with, "And besides...No preacher has come up to me telling me I had to." Clear as a bell He said*and I quote*,"Oh you're not doing it to submit to them....You're doing it to submit to Me." I knew then that this was not business as usual and if I was to be changed as a result of wrestling with the angel something would have to change...So needless to say I shaved. God-1 Me-0

Over the weeks that followed God reunited me and my family in a miraculous way but my wife was not surrendering to God. She was still enmeshed and bound by demonic forces. There were times she would mock my efforts to live for Him saying,"With all you have done how can you think He would help you?" I responded with, "I have no other choice...I am but a unclean leper casting myself on His mercy."

At times I would break through to her and God would use me to talk to her and minister to her. I would feel the annointing come over me as I spoke with authority and unction that I knew wasn't from me. I didn't take the mocking and attacks personally. I knew that she wasn't my enemy but it was the demonic forces that controlled her. God gave me a peace and gave me patience.

I told her that we were not going to be involved in the things we were involved in but there were things done behind my back. It started coming to a head about a week and a half ago. I had came home from a business trip for my dad and as I was trying to relax here I started to see demons.

Folks...I'm not crazy...Let me rephrase that...I don't hallucinate and never have hallucinated. It wasn't just what I was seeing but it was a physical reaction that would hit me when I saw them. The next day I laid down the law and out went the Tarot cards I found without realizing there were others.

So that brings us to last night. I've never been a going ho spiritual warfare guy. That kind of stuff has always freaked me out when I was younger. I don't go looking for fights. I don't go throwing my weight around and commanding this and rebuking that. I'm telling your this so that you will know and understand that what happened was totally out of character for me.

So the baby was down and we went outside on the porch to talk. We had a pretty awesome day and everything was pretty chill. The conversation was brought up about how Kat had felt that she was meant for more and that she had just felt shackled and that she always felt since having met me that I would be somehow instrumental in her being set free.

I began to speak and the HolyGhost began to minister. I told her under the annointing, "What has bound and enslaved you will one day tremble in fear in your presence." Not knowing how prophetic that utterance was but I was soon to find out. As she talked about how troubled she was in her mind and spirit and talked about it going way back to her childhood I quoted the scripture, "Come unto me all ye who are heavy laden and I will give you rest and take my yoke upon you and learn of me for My burden is easy and my yoke is light." "For God hath not given us a spirit of fear but of power and love and a sound mind." She shot back with, "So why aren't you of sound mind?" I said, *not realizing what was about to happen* Why are you getting so snappy and defensive? I didn't bring this up...You did!" ....And the demon spoke and said, "Yep" I stood there in silence for what seemed like 10 minutes neither of us speaking...I couldn't see her face in the darkness but I could feel a presence manifesting like a storm front growing... battle lines were being drawn.

I was about to say, "Think very carefully about your next course of action." Knowing I'd be speaking to it...Not her. I had never been in this position before but there was a unsaid recognition there...almost primal. I kept silent...It made the first move.

Suddenly, I saw an apparition literally erupt from her into the space that separated us...It looked like a haggard old woman with stringy lanky hair with hands curled into claws reaching for me.

The spirits in my wife spoke...She stood right in front of me and said, "Look into my eyes...Now you finally see us." My wife didn't know what I had just seen come out of her. With my left hand I reached up and tore the talisman off her neck with the right I laid hands on her rebuking it.

Next lesson: That authority in the name of Jesus thing? That's real.

I prayed and rebuked and because I was alone and had never been in this position before I knew I needed help. It was almost 11 on but I commanded them to be silent and to follow me and once inside I told it to sit. I called my mom who woke my dad and they contacted the pastor. While waiting I didn't engage it or talk with it...I stood with a counter separating us...It began to mock and talk about how long it had controlled her...I kept silent except to bow my head and begin to pray. I was kinda at a loss for words...I didn't feel confident...I was waaay out of my element. As I began to pray there was this MASSIVE presence that entered the room. I felt it swell and break over me. I had never felt anything that intense...It felt like power...And righteous holy anger. It spoke out of my spirit,"Who are you who would stand and defy the Lord Almighty?"

I knew then that it was only a matter of time. My dad arrived and we prayed together then the pastor arrived and we bound together in agreement. It was a rough fight and experience but it broke and she began to cry out to God and speak in tongues as the Spirit gave the utterance. After they left we prayed and talked and stayed up till almost 4 am burning tarot cards and spell books.

She told me that she could hear the demons arguing and they had been angry at themselves for revealing themselves to me. I knew it was God causing that to happen.

Look I'm nothing. I'm not super spiritual and I'm not even a decent Christian sometimes. I just want to remind you that the battle is real...There is a devil and demons and there is a holy righteous God that still delivers and sets free those who are bound and sets at liberty them that are bruised. I love each and every one of you and thank you for your prayers and love and support. Please keep praying. We are swimming in unknown waters now.

Wow.... Praise God.

Father, I love you. I praise and adore you. You are worthy of all honor and praise. Glory to your name, Jesus. My brother laid all of this before us to reveal to us that the war is real. And to assure us that your unmatched authority and power is also real. In humility he shared some very deep and personal things. However, his desire was to bring you all the glory. I thank you for this. I thank you for your Spirit, your leading, and your grace. I thank you that you are at work in my brother's life and the lives of his family. I ask that you would put a hedge of protection around this family. I pray that you would strengthen them and strengthen the love that holds them together. I pray that you would bless their home and fill it with your Spirit, your Light, and your Truth. Let them discover new and refreshing depths in you. May they find all that they need spiritually, in you. I pray that you will reveal the gifts that you have given them that they might be used to advance your kingdom. I ask, oh Lord, that you would provide for their every need. I pray that you will bless them increased income. I pray that their child will grow into a beautiful adult and that the entire family be in good health. I pray that they find the emotional peace and assurance that can only be found in you. I pray that they be strengthened in their spirits, their inner man, that they might full experience your presence, power, and love in their lives. I thank you for it in advance. In Jesus name. Amen.

[Aquila]

Originally Posted by Esaias

Glad to hear your testimony! A bit of advice from someone who has been there and done that... you REALLY REALLY REALLY need to get in fellowship with some Holy Ghost saints of God. It doesn't matter if their eschatology is off, if they are wrong about tithing, if they are all messed up about proper ecclesiology, if they can't figure out anything beyond Acts 2:38, One God and Jesus is His Name, the Holy Ghost, real prayer, and holy living. If they get that much right, then that's right where you need to be.

TRUST ME on this. Lay aside any notions you have of fixing them. Learn some basics, not just by hearing it preached but by seeing it in action and participating in it, from some old time saints of God. There's a lot that's better caught than taught about living in the will of God.

Find a small, backwards, country, rural, simple church with no fancy bells and whistles, where the preacher and the saints cain't seem ta speak the King's English and don't drive no fancy cars but they can show you how to live for God, and show it by experience.

People aren't perfect, overlook their faults and you'll probably find they'll overlook yours. But I STRONGLY recommend you find a small, local, apostolic church WITH OLD PEOPLE IN IT that have been walking with the Lord for DECADES and who know how to have old fashioned PRAYER MEETING.

Church hop and shop if necessary until you find THIS CHURCH I'M TALKING ABOUT. You'll know it because your flesh will scream at you to stay away but the Holy Ghost will lead you if you are willing.

Down the road the Lord may call you somewhere else (maybe, maybe not) but FOR NOW you need to get GROUNDED and ROOTED in some real basic stuff. And I am not talking about 'basic doctrines'. Do this and you'll thank the Lord later on.

I speak from personal experience, both good and bad. I WISH someone had told me the same thing 25 years ago.

Most excellent advice, my brother.

[Aquila]

The last time I had to deal with a spirit in my home was back in 2013. We successfully bound it and it was cast it out. Spiritual warfare is very real.

I've not had any major issues since then. However, my son is preparing to enter puberty and I'm noticing significant shifts in attitude. I might want to walk the fence line, if you know what I mean.

[jediwill83]

I'm not telling you your business man...I've never raised a son but I have been one....Just please please please be understanding with him. I was addicted to porn by age 9. I had a lot of shame and fear because of it and there was no one I could talk to. My dad didn't exactly react the best way. He basically burned everything in my room outside and put a loaded rifle in my face threatening my life. I was only a kid and a victim of molestation from older guys in THE CHURCH. I felt like it was my fault and that God hated me. I was driven by these urges I couldn't explain and nobody ever explained to me. I used to vomit everytime I viewed it as a child but I was driven time and time to go back to it.I survived by learning how to hide myself behind masks which made me unaccountable for my actions and struggles. Brother, he will only open himself up for accountability if he feels like you are a place of love and safety. If not the enemy will use that separation and division against him. Please please please I beg you with all humility to act with compassion and don't react in anger if it comes to things like this and I hope to God it never does. If I would have had a father that was loving and compassionate at the time it would have saved me decades of torment and addiction.

[aegsm76]

Originally Posted by Aquila

Wow.... Praise God.

Father, I love you. I praise and adore you. You are worthy of all honor and praise. Glory to your name, Jesus. My brother laid all of this before us to reveal to us that the war is real. And to assure us that your unmatched authority and power is also real. In humility he shared some very deep and personal things. However, his desire was to bring you all the glory. I thank you for this. I thank you for your Spirit, your leading, and your grace. I thank you that you are at work in my brother's life and the lives of his family. I ask that you would put a hedge of protection around this family. I pray that you would strengthen them and strengthen the love that holds them together. I pray that you would bless their home and fill it with your Spirit, your Light, and your Truth. Let them discover new and refreshing depths in you. May they find all that they need spiritually, in you. I pray that you will reveal the gifts that you have given them that they might be used to advance your kingdom. I ask, oh Lord, that you would provide for their every need. I pray that you will bless them increased income. I pray that their child will grow into a beautiful adult and that the entire family be in good health. I pray that they find the emotional peace and assurance that can only be found in you. I pray that they be strengthened in their spirits, their inner man, that they might full experience your presence, power, and love in their lives. I thank you for it in advance. In Jesus name. Amen.

A - you have very eloquently put my thoughts into your prayer for jedi and his family.
This post has been very encouraging to me.
We serve a great God.