'Cause I'm Scared

Digging4Truth · #1 10-30-2009, 09:23 AM

How many things do we/have we obeyed... not because we felt it was an actual command from God... but because... just in case... you never know... It might send me to hell?

Or because of our fear of what others might say. You can know for certain that you will be shunned and talked about when you cross certain lines.

I have recently been involved in a conversation that has brought up old fears and made me realize that, in many ways, I am quite the coward on some things.

There are some things that, while I still prefer them, I don't see that the interpretation of scripture I have been taught is true to the word itself. But... I'd rather stick with it because it is easier than living with the ridicule.

It would be so nice to know what part of my fears... even my convictions... are Gods... and which are not.

Has anyone else walked this road?

rgcraig · #2 10-30-2009, 09:27 AM

Been down that road.

Sherri and I were just discussing that yesterday in another way. Because of the way we were raised we see things differently than others, so sometimes I have trouble sorting through things - - is it just me because of the way I was raised or what?

I know exactly what you mean.

Jesuswins · #3 10-30-2009, 09:33 AM

OMG! I am on that road RIGHT NOW!
I haven't been on this site in a while, I've been questioning myself and wondering how we can truly know that we are following the leading of the Lord and not our own agenda.

I have got to get my nose in the WORD and my knees on the floor!

rgcraig · #4 10-30-2009, 09:37 AM

I remember the first time I went to see a movie - - I just knew the Lord was going to come while I was in there. I wasn't convicted of seeing the G rated movie, nothing happened and I lived to tell it, but I was scared to death the whole time I was in there.

Digging4Truth · #5 10-30-2009, 09:49 AM

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Originally Posted by rgcraig

I remember the first time I went to see a movie - - I just knew the Lord was going to come while I was in there. I wasn't convicted of seeing the G rated movie, nothing happened and I lived to tell it, but I was scared to death the whole time I was in there.

Yes ma'am.

My MIL will NOT go to a theater to see a movie and she is appalled beyond all belief if my wife goes with the kids to see Spy Kids at the theater.

She buys video after video after video when they come out on DVD.
She goes to the IMAX and sees Spiderman with her grandkids.
But she will NOT go see the a G rated movie with her grandkids.

That is out of fear. She clearly has no true conviction about movies. She buys all the G rated DVD's that are popular.

She clearly has no problem watching the movie on a big screen.

But this fear has been drummed into her for decades and she cannot overcome the fear even though it is, surely, clear to her that this is what she is dealing with.

There are so many areas where these types of struggles go on.

*AQuietPlace* · #6 10-30-2009, 09:59 AM

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Originally Posted by Digging4Truth

How many things do we/have we obeyed... not because we felt it was an actual command from God... but because... just in case... you never know... It might send me to hell?

Or because of our fear of what others might say. You can know for certain that you will be shunned and talked about when you cross certain lines.

I have recently been involved in a conversation that has brought up old fears and made me realize that, in many ways, I am quite the coward on some things.

There are some things that, while I still prefer them, I don't see that the interpretation of scripture I have been taught is true to the word itself. But... I'd rather stick with it because it is easier than living with the ridicule.

It would be so nice to know what part of my fears... even my convictions... are Gods... and which are not.

Has anyone else walked this road?

There right now. I've been praying for courage to stand up for what I believe the Bible teaches.

It's a very difficult place to be.

*AQuietPlace* · #7 10-30-2009, 10:02 AM

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Originally Posted by rgcraig

Been down that road.

Sherri and I were just discussing that yesterday in another way. Because of the way we were raised we see things differently than others, so sometimes I have trouble sorting through things - - is it just me because of the way I was raised or what?

I know exactly what you mean.

Exactly!

We have only just begun letting our kids watch some dvds. Mainly old Disney stuff, cartoons, Andy Griffith, etc. Every now and then my husband will comment that they're watching too much. And I wonder... are they really, or is it just because we're so freaked out by the whole 'tv and movies' stuff.

It's so hard to sort through what is real, and what is indoctrination. (and I don't mean that last word in a horribly negative sense.... it's just what happens when you're taught a certain way for a very long time)

*AQuietPlace* · #8 10-30-2009, 10:04 AM

Fear has always been a HUGE part of my walk with God. I hate that.

I know there is a healthy 'fear of God', but that's not what I'm talking about.

rgcraig · #9 10-30-2009, 10:05 AM

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Originally Posted by *AQuietPlace*

Exactly!

We have only just begun letting our kids watch some dvds. Mainly old Disney stuff, cartoons, Andy Griffith, etc. Every now and then my husband will comment that they're watching too much. And I wonder... are they really, or is it just because we're so freaked out by the whole 'tv and movies' stuff.

It's so hard to sort through what is real, and what is indoctrination. (and I don't mean that last word in a horribly negative sense.... it's just what happens when you're taught a certain way for a very long time)

Indoctrinated is the right word, especially when it comes to non Bibilical things.

Digging4Truth · #10 10-30-2009, 10:18 AM

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Indoctrinated is the right word, especially when it comes to non Bibilical things.

I have enjoyed the new relationship I have with God since an unfortunate series of events forced me out of a life of finding safety in church iteself and pushed me squarely into His presence.

I have thought negatively, in the past, of the Children of Israel in the wilderness longing for the leeks & the garlic of their captivity. But experience has found me in their shoes more than I would like to admit.

I love where I am. It is the greatest relationship with God I have ever had. But the life I had before did have it's advantages. The rules are laid out. It is all cut and dried. No need to form your own convictions.

I have to admit that sometimes, albeit not often, I find myself thinking back fondly on the days my eyes were less open. Looking back to days when someone else worked these things out for me.

But then I come to my senses and realize that trudging my way through this wilderness on my way to a promised land serves me the same purpose it did for the Children of Israel. It works out the ways of a slave and prepares me to be what I need to be to possess the land.

I have to remember that the "spices" of that day were handed to me by masters and then I find myself happy to continue on.