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Re: Double funeral service?
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Originally Posted by Wilsonwas
OK is relative to before all this. Work has sent me to therapy. I am physically OK, thank you Jesus, but mentally not so much. I miss my wife in a multitude of unforeseen ways. And some of those show as this personality change. Which I cannot really describe outside of an intense desire to withdraw from everyone, retire _ and alter my entire life to interact with people less. I have no bandwidth to tolerate little crud that people cause. I have little joy as well. Just a sore of constant yearning to live as opposed to exist. Work seems pointless except as a method to earn. I seem to have lost more of me than just her....it's weird.
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Grief is a process you just have to go through and during that process it is not unusual for you to not be yourself. I have had my share of it in life so I am not speaking words from a book but personal experience.
Some folks try to avoid the grieving process or abbreviate it but it is what it is and I am sure is different for each person. The grief never goes away but does stop being overhwhelming. I lost my dad when I was 13 years old and I am almost 60 now. There are days I grieve for him as badly as I did that first day but thankfully those days are few and far between and in their place I have a gratitude every day for having him in my life for the time I did. I don't think I could have survived if my grief had continued to be as powerful as it was that first year or two.
I will continue to pray for the Holy Spirit to truly be a comforter to you.
Oh, and while I did not know your wife I am betting she loved you and would not want to see you withdraw from people and life. Hopefully with time you won't.
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"I think some people love spiritual bondage just the way some people love physical bondage. It makes them feel secure. In the end though it is not healthy for the one who is lost over it or the one who is lives under the oppression even if by their own choice"
Titus2woman on AFF
"We did not wear uniforms. The lady workers dressed in the current fashions of the day, ...silks...satins...jewels or whatever they happened to possess. They were very smartly turned out, so that they made an impressive appearance on the streets where a large part of our work was conducted in the early years.
"It was not until long after, when former Holiness preachers had become part of us, that strict plainness of dress began to be taught.
"Although Entire Sanctification was preached at the beginning of the Movement, it was from a Wesleyan viewpoint, and had in it very little of the later Holiness Movement characteristics. Nothing was ever said about apparel, for everyone was so taken up with the Lord that mode of dress seemingly never occurred to any of us."
Quote from Ethel Goss (widow of 1st UPC Gen Supt. Howard Goss) book "The Winds of God"
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