Extremely blue

[good samaritan]

Originally Posted by citygirl16

Not in church. Haven't been for a while. When I was in church they always told us those who left the truth would commit suicide. Did anybody else hear this? Because I have been out of church for a while now and I can tell you I feel like absolute you know what. All the time. Nothing makes me happy anymore. Burnt out & fed up don't even begin to describe it. Constant crying, panic attacks. Is this from ingrained fear they put in our heads or am I really depressed? Should I go back to church to see if that helps? Online forums aren't really my thing but they are interesting to read. Any info would help.

You are in my prayers. Don't let Satan lie to you, there is nothing worth ending your life over. You were created by God and God did a good job when he did it. Remember that God doesn't make mistakes. Whatever it is your going through, never give up.

[KeptByTheWord]

Originally Posted by citygirl16

Not in church. Haven't been for a while. When I was in church they always told us those who left the truth would commit suicide. Did anybody else hear this? Because I have been out of church for a while now and I can tell you I feel like absolute you know what. All the time. Nothing makes me happy anymore. Burnt out & fed up don't even begin to describe it. Constant crying, panic attacks. Is this from ingrained fear they put in our heads or am I really depressed? Should I go back to church to see if that helps? Online forums aren't really my thing but they are interesting to read. Any info would help.

Simply... you need Jesus! As others have said the church is an awesome and wonderful thing when it is serving as it should, as a body, but when the message, such as you have heard, becomes perverted... it is sick. You need to find a better place to worship, and seek the face of Jesus.

[CC1]

You should want a relationship with God and to be part of a church family but not because someone has put fear in your mind that if you don't do that you will commit suicide. That is hogwash. I would love to see someone show stats that folks who leave church commit suicide in any greater percentage than any other group of people.

No church is perfect because they are made up of imperfect people and imperfect leaders but find one where the vast majority of the people and leadership are honest hearted and seeking after Christ with all of their heart and you can find peace, joy, comfort, and strength from a relationship with God and the support and fellowship of such a church.

[SJC]

Originally Posted by good samaritan

You are in my prayers. Don't let Satan lie to you, there is nothing worth ending your life over. You were created by God and God did a good job when he did it. Remember that God doesn't make mistakes. Whatever it is your going through, never give up.

[aegsm76]

cg - sad to hear that someone would say that. I will say that "most" people who I have seen leave church do struggle. i have had one close friend who left and did commit suicide. I would encourage you to somehow find a church where you can believe the doctrine and find people you can trust. Do not focus on those in church who are not being what they should be. We have to model ourselves after Christ and not each other.
Now, I will say that if you are having suicidal thoughts it is because God is still in control of your life. If the devil had control, he would have done away with you. He does not, but it trying to make you believe things will never change and life will only get worse.
Remember, God loves you and real people of God will too.

[citygirl16]

Thank you all so much. I did go visit a small apostolic church the other day and I've made an appointment with a counselor. The church was small but the people were extremely nice. I was curious as to if any one else had heard this fear being taught from behind the pulpit? Heard it for almost 6 yrs, walked out the back door and never went back. My heart honestly sank when I thought about the reasons I felt this way. God's people shouldn't be one of them.

[w4yne]

Originally Posted by citygirl16

Not in church. Haven't been for a while. When I was in church they always told us those who left the truth would commit suicide. Did anybody else hear this? Because I have been out of church for a while now and I can tell you I feel like absolute you know what. All the time. Nothing makes me happy anymore. Burnt out & fed up don't even begin to describe it. Constant crying, panic attacks. Is this from ingrained fear they put in our heads or am I really depressed? Should I go back to church to see if that helps? Online forums aren't really my thing but they are interesting to read. Any info would help.

Try paying the vows you made to God. Like how many of them
have you yet to honor? You have to pay Him what you owe Him.
He does not dismiss them.

You do this and everything will change for the better for you.