JaneEyre...
One of the best tools the enemy of our soul has is hurt and bitterness. It's probably his best weapon and he uses it at every opportunity. I know people who've left church and never returned, never got back to God but took their bitterness to the grave. Oh how well that weapon works for the enemey.
Matthew 18, Jesus discusses offences and He shows us how He is pretty ticked off when someone offends another...
"Woe unto the world because of offences! for it must needs be that offences come; but woe to that man by whom the offence cometh!"
Proverbs 18:19 says a brother offended is harder to be won than a strong city... if you hurt or alienate someone... if you cause a root of bitterness in them... it's a pile of work to win them back. And some never are won back.
That's why Paul said
Romans 14:21
It is good neither to eat flesh, nor to drink wine, nor any thing whereby thy brother stumbleth, or is offended, or is made weak.
Basically, even if something is your right, you should lay aside your right to do as you please, so as not to offend someone and cause them to stumble and lose out with God.
Jesus takes this very seriously... because he knows how hurts and wounds can cause callouses and walls to be built up... hearts to harden so they won't be hurt again. Thus hardening toward the very one who gave his life for them.
Hebrews 12:15 Looking diligently lest any man fail of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up trouble you, and thereby many be defiled;
I think that hurts and offences are the enemy's best weapon... and I'm positive he knows it.
It sounds to me like you've not turned your back on the Lord, but the willingness to trust man again is what you're dealing with.
I think you need to get back to church for certain... because the Bible says we should get together with our brothers and sisters and uplift one another even more as we see His coming draw closer. It's for our own good that God wants his people to fellowship and edify one another.
If there is another church nearby that you can attend, I would make every effort. I do think that you would be better served to steer clear of the harsh website that my fellow poster suggested... it was his suggestion to you because it fits his own agenda... I don't think it will be helpful but may harm.
There's healing in the Lord... I know this from experience.
I, like you, won't go into details on a public forum but I know all about offences and hurt in the church. What we must always remember in our own personal pain, is that God is not a man that He should lie... He's not the one that let you down or did you wrong or smeared your name... He's the one who will take care of the offender... and it's up to you to guard yourself against becoming bitter and allowing the offender to steal even more from you.
I've heard it said that we can allow a person who has hurt us, to hurt us again and again by harbouring anger and unforgiveness. Secular Psychologist will talk about that in therapy sessions. How much more should the Christian forgive. (I'm not saying trust the person.. but forgive)
It was said before, and is so very true... A person should have to earn your trust.. and there is nothing wrong with guarding yourself from mankind hurting you.
But at the same time, for the sake of your own self and maybe others who are watching your life (family, children, friends, co-workers) get yourself back to a church and lift those hands and live in the Joy of the Lord.
You're never alone.
My soul followeth hard after thee....Love one another with a pure heart fervently. 
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