Interpretation... not from God.. only using symbolism???
Last night I had the strangest dream:
I was in our old apartment and I heard something crash. I went out to look and the safety rail that led up the stairs to me and mom's apartment had fallen off completely.
Growing up I was missing safety "barriers" as a child. Even more so living with mom when I was a teen.
There were some ppl at the bottom of the steps. I walked down cautiously and said "I'm going to need your card..." A man gave me his business card. A lady spoke up "I told you they'll sue.."
I felt that someone should be responsible.. I needed someone to blame (see thread "No Wax")
???? I guess I had pets. I picked up a white bunny and another animal and took them inside to my bedroom. I put them in some sort of a makeshift "cage" for their safety. ????
Really don't know. I always felt responsible for my sister who is 12 yrs younger. Like for the bunny and the other animal. (I forced that one.. lol)
Mom was leaving and I told her "they removed the safety rail.."
After the divorce from stepdad, mom changed. I always felt like she divorced me too. She was in the home, but an absent parent. I feel like I raised myself.
I followed her out the door to makesure she didn't fall.
I felt responsible for her too. It was a burden that I was too young to bear.
The safety rail was back in place as if it had never been removed,
The rail was always there. God was there but I didn't seek refuge in Him.
and the ppl that were at the bottom of the stairs were gone.
no clue....
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