I Have AIDS

[rgcraig]

CBY,

If you will read the last few pages we got silly. It had NOTHING to do with you or AIDS.

I am so sorry that you took it personal - that was not my intent at all.

I will delete immediately.

[rrford]

I have a comment but will refrain.

[Scott Hutchinson]

CHOSENBYONE God loves you and cares about you.

[Scott Hutchinson]

Chosen I got silly too ,but I'm sorry I meant no harm.

[rgcraig]

CB1,

I just read the dialog for the past few pages and you are making this about you, when it had NOTHING to do with you. If you will follow the conversation, as silly as it was - - we stopped talking about you or AIDS long ago.

All this talk about being old was from a couple of the newbies. We call this hijacking a thread.

I'm going to undelete the post because they do not pertain to you.

I do apologize that we got silly.

[Neck]

Originally Posted by chosenbyone

It became very obvious the sin of prejudice was something that didn't go away from your ranks. I was hoping this would have ended way before you joked and wrote that you thought this thread was about hearing aids. That was the cruelest and most unexpected comment one could ever have read by someone with AIDS.

You proved that there wasn't a place among you for the likes of me. Though I bore my heart in bitter tears, the end result was far from what I really every in my worst nightmares would expected. You seemed to delight in tearing my character and my very being into shreds and then rejoiced at your victory. Congratulations.

Do you honestly think that I would have been so free in the beginning fearing that I would be made fun of and by degraded than way you did? I only wanted to believe that there were people like the ones I use to know. You made me feel compelled to reveal more and more of things that have brought my life so pain in order to be believed and excepted. I don't understand. I don't understand how you could sit there behind your mask of Christianity and judge me.

I cannot look for mankind to ever really see my heart for only God sees my heart. You have been the most horrible creatures by your slanderous behavior toward me. You portrayed a person that you didn't even know though he tried all he could to show you, so that perhaps you would really love him.

I don't know why I believed your words of compassion and acceptance when your heart revealed the true nature of your thoughts.

I asked for forgiveness and was met with mockery and disdain. Have you thought of someone else lurking who looked to you here on AFF for compassion and read this thread and what that soul must think of us apostolic. Some of you were convinced I was out to harm others, but indeed the truth has been revealed that you were out to harm others.

Admin please erase any post, thread or mention of me here on this forum. Please revoke my membership and don't use me as someone you used as a punchline. God sees my heart and he sees yours too.


I do want to thank the few of you that allowed the spirit of God to move through you to touch me, I was broken in the presence of the love of God that you presented. Thad, Neckstadt, Annie, Dan, Jroc and especially Sis Fella thank you very, very much. Sis Fella, you ministered to me greatly with your words last night. I truly appreciated what the Lord spoke through you and I was truly blanketed in the presence of the Lord. Bless you.

Chosen, I will continue to pray for you. Whoever you are... The one thing I know is there is a heart and a soul punching the keys on the other end of the internet.

I pray the Lord leads you, encourages you and helps you find eternal peace.

No matter how deep your life situation may really be....

Keep your faith and trust in the almighty.

[CC1]

Chosen,

Keep in mind that the nature of threads on a forum like this one is to wander and get off track. I just got back to my hotel room and was catching up on this thread from last night.

As I read it I feared that you might check in and take offense at the levity being displayed the last few pages. I know almost all of these posters well and I do not believe they meant any disrespect to your plight. They were having a little fun with each other in the course of dialogue but of course when one steps back it is not in line with the seriousness of this thread.

I am praying for you. When I say that I am not kidding. Even as I went about my business today you were in my prayers.

[Michael Phelps]

Originally Posted by rgcraig

CB1,

I just read the dialog for the past few pages and you are making this about you, when it had NOTHING to do with you. If you will follow the conversation, as silly as it was - - we stopped talking about you or AIDS long ago.

All this talk about being old was from a couple of the newbies. We call this hijacking a thread.

I'm going to undelete the post because they do not pertain to you.

I do apologize that we got silly.

I don't apologize that we got silly. We get silly on nearly every thread, people need to get their feelings off of their shoulders if they're going to post in forums like this. We insulted no one, demeaned no one, and as Renda said, our entertainment was coming from toying with a couple of wannabe wise men who fill us with mirth with their every post.

Nothing to do with you CBO.

[Coonskinner]

Public internet confessions are overrated in my opinion.

Chosen, I am very sorry for you. I have prayed for you.

But personally, I think you were less than wise in the way you presented yourself here. It is my prayer that you find peace and salvation.

And Brother Phelps, it has been amusing around here lately.

[Michael Phelps]

Originally Posted by Coonskinner

Public internet confessions are overrated in my opinion.

Chosen, I am very sorry for you. I have prayed for you.

But personally, I think you were less than wise in the way you presented yourself here. It is my prayer that you find peace and salvation.

And Brother Phelps, it has been amusing around here lately.

I thought so, but we're just a couple of old guys, eh?