Why am I labeled backslid and unusable by God

[OneAccord]

When I first came to the Lord back in the Dark Ages (Pre-Internet), I was told about God's Unconditional Love and favor. Wow, what a concept. God loved me no matter what. And, since God's people had Him in their hearts, the love they had was unconditional too, right? Well, no, I found very quickly in life that wasn't necessarilly the case. Peoples love and acceptance wasn't as pure as God's. Their love was extended only so far as when I was faithful to my church, submitted to authority, obeyed the rules and so on. Their love had boundaries. Cross those boundaries and I was in the abyss. The right hand of fellowship was withdrawn, and I was cut off to whither on the vine. I, who had helped build that church from scratch, was actually referred to as a Judas, a traitor, a betrayer of the Lord, simply because I moved to another church that, incidentally, preached the same doctrine, held to the same standards, etc.

So, it happens. Just be led of the Lord and follow here He leads.