Cancer and Other Disease Support

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Most of you know me on here and most of you know that my husband had testicular cancer surgery and radiation in the late fall of '07. You may or may not know that he had bladder cancer a few years previous to that.

I wanted to start a thread where people could talk about these issues and get support from each other. I was mentioning some of my struggle to a co-worker this morning and she said "Do you have nayone to talk to about this?" and I said no. She mentioned finding a support group. I may do that sometime, but I thought it might alos be good to have something here.

I found that through the diagnosis,surgery and radiation, I coped fairly well. Afterwards, I started really thinking about my financial situation if I were to lose my husband. I am still in that situation except for having thought hard about it and taking a CNA class. I work 20 hours a week and could not support myself although my husband has life insurance. Realistically though, if he happened to die of cancer, he could end up leaving his job and we would not have the insurance.

His prognosis is good. His last two check-ups were cancer free. And yet, with his history, I can't help but thing about these things. Some people would have gone right out and gotten a full-time job, I suppose. But that just doesn't feel right right now.

So, I am dealing with fear. Every time a check-up rolls around I get panic attacks. Also there is the question of diet and food and how much we are responsible for our own conditions. Sometimes I just want to forget about it. Sometimes I want to make more changes.

So, can some of you others relate to these fears and how are you dealing with them?

Thanks.