Obey Them that Rule???

[Michlow]

Originally Posted by Felicity

Mich.......

God sees your heart and knows your desire and all your issues. There's nothing wrong with searching and questioning and looking for answers. The wisest man who ever lived did that, as well as all of us. Some have more problem in this regard as others and like you yourself said, there are reasons why some people have more problem with trust, etc.

I believe you have a good heart and that you're sincere. If you keep your eyes on Jesus and you follow "hard" after Him and desire to please Him and be obedient to His will and purpose, you'll find your way. He will lead you.

I pray God's very best for you. While you're seeking, and learning and searching ..... maintain personal relationship with Him! The rest will fall into place. I believe that! We go through "times and seasons" in our life. Some are more difficult than others. But I know and can testify as can so many others here that Jesus never fails. It sounds cliche'-ish but it's true, and He will get you to where you need to go and need to be.

We're all special to God and He is a PERSONAL Saviour. We don't all need to be the same. We're not all formed from the same cookie-cutter. Our circumstances in life affect us deeply and profoundly and affect our view of the world and our view of ourselves. Our perspectives are not all the same and that's okay but the main thing is that you maintain personal relationship with Jesus Christ.

Just as you submit yourself to your boss, your place of business, to the laws and leadership placed over you in so many ways and so many places, you'll come to the place where you'll place yourself under the leadership of a man who loves God, loves His people and who is sincerely and honestly trying to help people to grow spiritually and be saved.

I believe it!

Thank you Felicity. I believe that too. Yes, I have issues, lots of them! And I avoided dealing with them for a very very long time. They started to surface when I originally found FCF, some of you might remember that. And then, I got tired of the dealing with it. I thought if I could just squish myself back into the same mindset that I had when I was first saved. When I believed everything I was told, and did everything I was told, and didn't question anything. Well, then I would be happy and comfortable again.

Guess how well that worked? I really tried, but I couldn't silence the questions or the doubts. It was on New Year's day when it came to a head. I was sitting on my bed, with my Bible, just kinda thumbing through. And of a sudden all the questions, all the apparent contradictions all the things that didn't make sense came boiling to the surface. And I just started to cry and said "God, I really don't think its supposed to be so hard! Why do we make it so hard? Nothing makes sense anymore and I can't stand it!"

And I prayed for a while I had a realization. I didn't care about standards, I didn't care about church or its programs, or tithing, or the role of women, or even doctrine. Because all of that junk had completely clouded my view of Jesus, and I didn't even know who he was anymore. Was he the harsh judge that was just waiting for me to show I wasn't "holy" enough so he could smite me? Was he the one that demanded absolute perfection? The one for whom nothing was ever enough?

At that moment, I made a New year's resolution, that the rest of that stuff could go in the garbage for all I cared. All I wanted to know is "Who is Jesus?"

So for right now, Yes, I do think that the rest of that stuff is unimportant. All that matters is my quest to find out Who He is. After that...well...who knows...