Sherri,
A wise person once told me that sometimes we want to do something for God but God doesn't want us to do that something. Maybe He has someone else picked out for that particular thing. Maybe the whole situation will be handled differently than what WE had planned. But as long as it is GOD's plan and GOD's will - what better could we ask!!
I know that you have a heart to serve Him. I think that's wonderful. But I'm also glad that you have a heart that is willing to listen for what GOD wants.
Besides, some of us (me) are just getting to feel like we know you a little bit. And we (I) like what we're seeing. So it'll be nice to keep you among the living if we can.
God bless you for your willingness to be used tho.