I have Left the UPC Church

Sis. I had a sister of mine grow quite dissallusioned with all the insignificant stuff, (her words) when she really had an inward struggle with family/childhood issues that sort of meshed with the church things.

God built the church so simularly to the family that sometimes we hurt form normal, daily personality exersions. They eventually sort of "pop our bubble" of visions of security and careing by the empty suits whose message doesn't reach out any more.

The real reason you've been elected to this regal place of sufferring is to be able to change the world you live in, not wave the white flag of truce.

Those feelings of incompleteness will eventually reveal their foundations, and your view of the empty suits will magically turn to wamth and reminissant goodness.

The place you stand is heartbreaking to me. In my own family all my brothers and sister recieved the Holy Ghost and none of them stayed, never being able to differentiate the purpose of doctrine over their own pain and need. But if the wounds are deep then only time will let them be discovered.

I really am touched by your simple plea for understanding and positive self-examination. It speaks of maturity to me. But as I pray for you, I want you to know. Your posterity and successes depend on the fact you will overcome the world, as your savior did. And the courage I hear within will someday ( I hope Soon ) surface to the banced mind of the Godly Woman God made you to be.

God bless...