I think about that sometimes....how would he had lived had I died and he was spared. Would he had been able to just live without all the "stuff" and grow up normal.
I know Jesus cares....and I know He is patient and merciful since I am still here, cuz he could have given up on me a loooonnnggg time ago.
Just difficult to develop a "relationship" with Him. Not as an excuse (cuz I am not one of "them") but I grew up in a very strict pentecostal atmosphere, and I was never taught how to have relationships (with any authority figure)...just to obey the rules. So its hard to view Jesus as a friend, because he is the ultimate authority, ya know? And since I know He knows all that is within me it makes it even more difficult to think we can have a real relationship. Does that make sense? Would you try hard to befriend someone that really didnt like you? (just an analogy...I like Jesus
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We'll see.
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Originally Posted by Rhoni
Mercy,
Your fiance who died; what would he tell you? There is a best friend closer than he was...Jesus also has a word for you...when you are ready to let me heal you.
Praying for you,
Rhoni
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