Great changes are coming...

[Jack Shephard]

For me. Since being a part of this forum and not because of this forum I have gone through mutliple levels of change in my spiritual walk. Right now is no different. I have come to a place where all that I know in the head doesn't match what the heart feels. It's a scary place to be and I don't know wherethe end result will leave me. I have many, too many questions that in my head I have an answer for, but in my heart I have not been able to reconcile. I have privately communicated with a one or two of you on this matter and thank you for listening and for all the advise. Now I am taking this to a public forum...sorta public that is. Most of you all know I have changed my name on here recently. If you didn't know, my avatar is the same as before and all my info is still intact so you should know who I am.

I am sure each of you reading this have been through something akin to this. Whether it was going Lib to Con and back to Lib or whatever. I may be a different person upon completion of this journey...maybe for the better, maybe not depending on where you are standing and looking from. I know that at the end I hope to be able to sleep better at night and feel better. For too long, even after I left the UPC I have felt a bit of anxiety when talking about my spiritual life and/or spiritual walk. I know who I am, I know what my wants are for my spiritual life. Only a few people really, I mean really know me...those that do would tell you I am a very loyal friend, ferociously in fact. I know that won't change, but all other things may...I am scared and also very interested where this will leave me in the end.

God Bless!