Is it really worth it?
Im looking at the forum this morning.....
This one against that one...agenda against agenda....Lib against Con against Mod.
What justifies all this?
What in the world are we thinking????
When our "positions" truly affect things to where families and friendships are on the rocks because of our nasty agendas!!
Im very tore up this morning...you see I have a friend..a very good friend that has taught me many valuable things in life. A friend that has been like the brother I never knew about. A friend that will tell me like it is and "tear me a new one", but then love me in spite!
A friend that has slept in my home and me in his....A friend that has been kind to me in every way.
One that has allowed me to completely be myself and I him.
A friend that has prayed with me, laughed with me, yes even yelled at me and yes even hung up on me.
This man and his family were placed in our lives by God himself....of that I know.
Do we agree on everything...NO!
But this man has gone to bat for me when others would not. This man has stood my me when he should not have.
When I have opened my stupid mouth and said something ignorant...he has stood my me.
But you see, because of agenda and position and opinions and my stupid mouth and my "Forum Cyber - Personality", I am on the verge of losing one of the best friends I have.
Those of you that REALLY know me, off of this forum, know that I am not as I can be perceived. To my dismay...that has not been good. I have hurt people unfairly, said things I should not have, and showed my stupid butt on far too many occasions.
To this friend - You know who you are. And I love you dearly.
Im done....finished.
I am NLYP, Contender and yes, even Strongminded on this forum.
But under all that mess and fussing and facade...I am Dan.
I want to say this to Old Paths.....Ive never....ever doubted you are a good man....I have had fun tearing you up and chewing you up and even talking you down on here. I WAS WRONG!! Bro. Please forgive me...You are a man of God and I crossed lines that should have never ever been crossed because of the anointing you have on your life. NO FORUM EVER justifies the ability for a man to get on here an tear on another...ESPECIALLY if they are supposed to be brothers. We don not agree on many issues...BUT IT IS NOT WORTH my soul to continue to bash, make fun of and tear down you and your positions on the issues...Once again...I am sorry and pray you will forgive me.
TO Wholehearted - Even though you are not here....You and I completed a telephone conversation and I wanted to make it public that I extended the same apology to you. Your a good man and GOD has called you to do a work in your city! DO IT WITH ALL YOUR MIGHT!!!! Thanks for your graciousness in accepting my apology. I do hope to one day shake your hand and call you friend.
TO Kansas Preacher - YOU are one of the finest men I know. You have been a source of much strength to me in the real world. You are consistent! I respect that more then you can fathom! YOU were there for me when I was going through a MAJOR trial in my life. There have been times I have run my mouth on here and said things about CAF that were not true. I have violated your forum on more then one occasion by bringing issues here...I am very sorry for that. I have wept this week with the thought of losing you in the UPCI...I KNOW that whatever you choose, GOD will bless you. WE have prayed together and shared eachothers hearts on many occasions...and weather you are UPC, IND or whatever.....God's best to you, and I pray that your will forgive anything that I have done to hurt or offend.
Man...with the exception of a tear soaked keyboard...this feels really really Good.
I have net so many friends on here and value each of you...but in order for me to TRULY be your friend...I HAVE TO BE REAL with you and myself.
At the age of 13 GOD called me to the ministry and placed an anointing on my life. To my dismay,I have neglected that. Sure I can preach, rip snort with the best of them...but deep down, deep rooted issues that I have to deal with IF I am going to see the fullness of what Gods plan for me really is in my life.
I dont know how much more real I can be...I humbly ask that if there is a fellow poster that I have offended or wronged...I ask your forgiveness.
God has been very very good to me and my family and I want to be good to him.
I started this thread with this question - "IS IT REALLY WORTH IT?"
Here is the answer....Is it worth the division and the fussing and the fighting and the labels and the attitudes that cause genuine hurt and slander and feelings? Is it worth being someone Im not on this forum......The answer NO!!!!! Its never worth hurting someone...
BUT....
"IS IT REALLY WORTH IT?"
Here is the other answer...
Is it worth humbling yourself and cleaning your heart and being honest with folks publically and be in the attitude and spirit that would bring honor to God?
ABSOLUTELY!
Normally he is as calm and peaceable as a beagle on qualudes but this is good!
J/K
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