I have fallen...again....and again....and again....I have a prescription drug problem and that leads to drinking and other things till I finally come to myself....I am alone..please note, I am not on a pity party, I am just tormented in my soul....I love Jesus so much and I truly want to live for him with everything in me....there are just set backs and I dont want to put negative things all over the interntet....for folks to read....I just need someone out there to help me touch God...I am full fledged One God Apostolic raised in the old ways...and I have tried so hard..but my problems seem to control me and I cant break free....is there anyone out there? anyone that will help me ...tonight? ....please, I cant lay here like this much longer....I cant...I simply am so tormented....there is no one and Ive done this to myself....please forgive me if I have placed this on the wrong site...or said anything out of order...I need you to help me. Will someone please..please hear me and help me to touch God...tonight...I will go looking for things soon if this dont stop and I dont want too.....
God Bless...
Your Friend...Billl.....
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God Bless you always; Bro. Bill...
Bill, there are many causes for the types of addiction you describe. And while I personally believe in a God Who can and does deliver, perhaps seeking yet another "religion fix" tonight isn't going to be a lasting answer. I'm just guessing, but you have probably reached out like this before - even if just silently in a church meeting.
You need help to identify the cause of the problem. The fact that you've been back and forth on this is evidence that you haven't hit upon a lasting solution yet. Don't let that discourage you. You are a person of worth and the very highest value in the eyes of God. He does offer you hope even still.
Internet forums can be a way to support a recovery program, but they are no substitute for one-on-one "face time" with a trained counselor. Please make it a point to schedule an appointment with someone. The A.C.T.S. courses in many Pentecostal churches is a good place to start if that's your background. If you prefer not to identify yourself among that group, you can still call a local substance abuse line. Briefly explain what you've just posted and ask them to set you up with someone right away.
Bill I am also praying for you and will continue to do so. God loves you and wants to help you but in addition to directly touching you many times God chooses to use people to help people.
I agree with Sam that you need to enter AA to get some structure and accountibility to your efforts to stay drug free and sober. You will have an advantage over many of the other AA group members as you know how to connect to God in a way that many of them may not know how. God bless.
__________________ "I think some people love spiritual bondage just the way some people love physical bondage. It makes them feel secure. In the end though it is not healthy for the one who is lost over it or the one who is lives under the oppression even if by their own choice"
Titus2woman on AFF
"We did not wear uniforms. The lady workers dressed in the current fashions of the day, ...silks...satins...jewels or whatever they happened to possess. They were very smartly turned out, so that they made an impressive appearance on the streets where a large part of our work was conducted in the early years.
"It was not until long after, when former Holiness preachers had become part of us, that strict plainness of dress began to be taught.
"Although Entire Sanctification was preached at the beginning of the Movement, it was from a Wesleyan viewpoint, and had in it very little of the later Holiness Movement characteristics. Nothing was ever said about apparel, for everyone was so taken up with the Lord that mode of dress seemingly never occurred to any of us."
Quote from Ethel Goss (widow of 1st UPC Gen Supt. Howard Goss) book "The Winds of God"
Deliverance can come thru many avenues God has provided - you must walk down them and apply the help you receive - Make up your mind that you want change and God will lead you to the ones who can help. He loves you so - don't give up!!!!!
I have fallen...again....and again....and again....I have a prescription drug problem and that leads to drinking and other things till I finally come to myself....I am alone..please note, I am not on a pity party, I am just tormented in my soul....I love Jesus so much and I truly want to live for him with everything in me....there are just set backs and I dont want to put negative things all over the interntet....for folks to read....I just need someone out there to help me touch God...I am full fledged One God Apostolic raised in the old ways...and I have tried so hard..but my problems seem to control me and I cant break free....is there anyone out there? anyone that will help me ...tonight? ....please, I cant lay here like this much longer....I cant...I simply am so tormented....there is no one and Ive done this to myself....please forgive me if I have placed this on the wrong site...or said anything out of order...I need you to help me. Will someone please..please hear me and help me to touch God...tonight...I will go looking for things soon if this dont stop and I dont want too.....
God Bless...
Your Friend...Billl.....
Bill, I have recently started on my journey to better physical shape. I have found my mind, attitude and spirits are up since I started. In my case I have lost 36 lbs since Feb 20th and gone from nearly 250 to 212. I understood the risk and the health history of my family but stress would put me in a position to tell my self that I deserved to eat.
Once day in Feb I woke up and went downstairs and just felt like I was just not happy with myself. I remember saying a simple prayer and all in that moment, the Lord showed me those around me.
How that being in the best physical shape and having a clear mind would equip me for more in my life.
It was at that moment that I started on my journey, now I work out at when I used to grab the cheese at 10:00PM.
Your journey needs to be one of trusting in the Lord and taking the first step that you know should be taken.
Bro. Bill 
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