Serious Weight Problem
 

Folks there's no getting around this...I'm a serious food addict. I'm not talking about just simple enjoyment of a good meal...I'm talking about a driving controlling addiction.

I've had weight problems since I was a child. I was lonely with few friends and very low self esteem suffering with some major depression that started even before I understood what the word meant.

I didn't go through a teen drinking and drug phase and I didn't even do it in my 20's but about a year and a half ago it dawned on me that I had a serious addiction to eating.

It doesn't help that I'm a foodie and I love to cook. Excuse the expression but cooking shows are like my porn.

I was 320 pounds in 9th grade....and while I lost down to 267 when I was about 24 it has went back up and now I'm over 400.

I'm so ashamed of my size and it's a driving feeling of disgust and failure.

I feel like when people see me that it's what they notice first.

How can I succeed in life when I cant even manage my own weight and appetite?

I can cycle from not eating at all to "EAT ALL THE THINGS!!!"

I get winded just from simple activity now and I know it'll only get worse.

The past three months has been severely emotionally trying and while I've talked about some details there's plenty you guys don't know...It was far worse than I've revealed and my addictive personality has ballooned filling the void the alcohol and pot was filling so it's gone from bad to worse.

I need some focused prayer...I know God is able but I know it'll take effort and restraint on my part...I believe and trust God but it's me I doubt.

I'm well aware of all the health risks...Just please help me pray.

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:friend praying with you!

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Jedi, I have found one of the things that is most filling is protein, lean protein. And the best diet is lean protein with veggies/salad

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The low carb works for me but since losing my job it's been a luxury we can't afford...It's been just food that isn't expensive. Hopefully I can go back on it in the future.

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check this page out and see if there is anything that works for you

https://www.budgetbytes.com/2017/01/...-carb-recipes/

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I know what you mean. It's like "They" set the system up so only rich folks can eat right, poor folks have to feed on high-carb filler material. Their judgment slumbereth not...

You have a long way to go, so you have start out slow. And will probably fall off the wagon again and again, multiple times. But that's okay. Just get back on and plug away at it.

The main thing is exercise. Doesn't really matter what (except jogging and long distance slow running, that's s killer. Seriously, it kills, don't do it.) A little bit every day, a little more every week.

You may need to check and see if you aren't borderline diabetic (if yes, don't fret, it CAN be reversed).

Food addiction is basically like any other addiction: a way to find release and comfort and avoid emotional/psychological pain. Self medicating, in other words.

You should find people who have been where you are and are now where you want to be, and talk to them. Preferably in real life, but there are online forums for people recovering from addictions to share their experiences, etc. Just stay away from any kind of 12 step programs, those are basically like cults. I speak from experience.

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Praying for you

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I can empathize, as someone who's been ~300 my whole adult life, and not far behind that during my school days. Right now, I'm the heaviest I've ever been, at around 340-350 (funnily enough, I typically only eat one meal per day). It's not something I consider a serious problem personally, even though I'd like to shed about 100 lbs, but I can certainly understand where you're coming from. I'll keep you in my prayers.

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Lift super heavy, buy a bicycle, and eat bacon. :thumbsup

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Did someone say bacon????? Is that you Lord? Speak, for thy servant heareth!